Well let's face it, today was not my best, by so far its untrue.
Sport is so frustrating, one day its all fine and going well, you can hardly put a shot wrongly, and then boom! All of a sudden the momentum that had been building the last 10 days stops and back tracks. Training has been going so well. Comfortable in position and with my abilities, a certain amount of belief was back, the knowledge that the shot would where it was meant to! The 10 ring! Grrr.
I know its not gone, its there lurking under there surface, waiting and so desperately wanting to return the open and show itself, my true self, the form I know I am capable of showing. At least writing these words I confirm at least 1 thing in my mind:
I want it so badly!
The success, the feeling of a good performance, of a great performance, of knowing my score before having to look, of being a champion.
We shall see how tomorrow goes and I promise this: I'll be doing the best I can and giving it all that I can.
It's been a strange 4 years, I wonder how the next 4 will stack up over time.
This is not my last blog post (maybe as current champion), but I do want to thank people for their support and love.
Thank you mum and dad, in many more ways than one I would not be here now or have achieved the things I have without you.
My sister hari, thank you for being there and putting up with me, and john, my official beer tester and surrogate drinker ;)
My fiance sheree, thank you also for putting up with my highs and lows, supporting me and being there in so many ways for me. My wtb :)
Thank to all my other family, adopted, co opted, arm twisted, bribed and everything else. Without my friends who put up with me and my ways I would truly lost - thank you.
Once again, enough talk, time for sleep and then more purposeful action in the morning.
Dave x
Ps. Which side of the force do you think I should go for? Or is better? :)
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